Finding treasures in scary places.
Doesn’t treasures of darkness seem like an oxymoron? Can good things come from scary places? As a child, I didn’t lie awake in the dark imagining treasures under my bed. My fear only saw scary monsters and biting vampires. But then I grew up, got married, and was no longer afraid of the dark. I felt safe with my husband lying next to me. That’s when I realized it wasn’t darkness that scared me; it was being alone in the dark that terrified me.
I experienced darkness of a different kind years later while living in Ukraine. As a missionary, I encountered a spiritual darkness that sought to hinder my ministry. My emotions ran rampant. I lived under discouragement and fear, but didn’t have a clue why. One night I was riding a train across the border into Hungary for furlough and I literally felt something lift off of me as if someone removed a heavy blanket. God said to me, “I’m here, don’t be afraid! Stand in My armor.” I realized then the source of the darkness and cast Satan out. I felt such freedom as God’s light filled my heart. After furlough, I returned back across that same border victorious in battle and no longer afraid of being alone in the dark. Deuteronomy 20:4 says,
“For the LORD your God is the one who goes with you to fight for you
against your enemies to give you victory.”
The key to unlocking the treasures of darkness is knowing who’s with you in the dark.
Trusting His word, I shared the gospel without fear because I knew God was with me. My confidence and trust skyrocketed and the joy of ministry returned. I saw God save the lost and miraculously heal the sick. I would never have discovered these treasures had I not followed God’s leading into the dark.
God will light up your darkness.
I experienced this again at the age of 53 when my 27-year marriage fell apart. Through rejection and a painful divorce, the light in my soul went out. For a very long moment I was terrified of being alone in the dark again, but then I remembered my key. I wasn’t alone; my Heavenly Husband was with me (Isaiah 54:5).
For You light my lamp; The LORD my God illumines my darkness.
As I began daily seeking God, He illuminated my way through divorce. I spent every morning and evening reading the Bible. I’d journal specific questions and the next morning find answers in my daily devotional or scripture reading. I discovered so many precious treasures by applying these answers. Here are only a few.
Over time God gently peeled back the layers of brokenness and healed me. My heart came alive again as I spent time with a God who understands betrayal and rejection. My feelings of not being good enough withered when I grasped how much He loved me. God rebuilt my life with precious treasures (Isaiah 54:4-12) healing my sorrow so I could live and laugh again. So many people live unnecessarily with emotional wounds, so I can’t emphasize this one enough (Psalm 147:3).
He had a plan for my life (Jeremiah 29:11) and nothing, not even divorce could stop me from fulfilling that plan if I continued to follow His leading. When I was ready, God brought me back into teaching ministry and gave me a greater desire to help those dealing with emotional trauma like divorce and betrayal.
Each month, I’d spread my bills on the table and ask God to help me pay them (Matthew 6:25-33). I received miraculous provision month after month as money came in from unexpected sources. Once I received a bank refund check. Other times, friends or family would put cash in my hands and it would be just what was needed. God gave me favor with employers. He provided temporary jobs until I got a more permanent one. God told me to store up food for hard times 2 years before the divorce. Fortunately I listened and instead of going to the grocery store for everything, I ate from my overflowing pantry. I developed such a strong dependence and trust in Jehovah Jireh, my provider!
“I will give you the treasures of darkness, riches stored in secret places,
so that you may know that I am the LORD, the God of Israel, who summons you by name.”
You’re never alone in the darkness!
God’s power and abiding presence is there every time to protect, heal, and light the way. The key to the treasures of darkness is knowing He’s there with you and He’s summoning you by name.
What types of darkness have you found yourself in?
What steps will you take today to let God’s light reveal your own treasures of darkness?
To learn more about how to have God in your life, read My Story.