My Story

Finding A Life Worth Living

If you’re looking for a life worth living, then please take a minute to read this! Believe it or not, your life can change! When my life hit bottom, I discovered that hitting bottom only gives you one view and that’s up. When I looked up from my suffering, I saw a desperate need for help outside of myself. Desperation destroyed every ounce of self-reliance that had kept me from seeking help. It freed me to ask God to come rescue me and His rescue offered escape, not into death, but into a life filled with treasures beyond my imagination. Here’s my story.

Picture Of Despair

I waited patiently for the LORD to help me, and he turned to me and heard my cry.
He lifted me out of the pit of despair, out of the mud and the mire.
He set my feet on solid ground and steadied me as I walked along.
Psalm 40:1-2

Rescued and healed

I love this picture because it reminds me of how I used to feel: dirty and full of shame; a nobody from nowhere. I was divorced with 3 small children, about to lose my house, and living a very dirty life. I spent most of my money in bars trying to find love or drown my sorrows with alcohol and every night when I’d get home, I’d be so ashamed I’d think about suicide.

One evening during a hot and sultry Texas summer, I was lying in bed just trying to breath. I couldn’t afford air conditioning and the house felt like an oven. My children were asleep and I was alone with my tormenting thoughts. I saw no way out. My secretarial job didn’t come close to covering the bills and I knew my emotional state was tittering on the edge of collapse. My lifestyle only added more shame and guilt. Since the responsibility of 3 kids and overwhelming emotional stress was killing me anyway, why not just end it?

God, If You’re There…

1982 – Recently divorced – sorry, it’s a bit blurry, but aren’t my kids adorable?

I remember looking out my bedroom window at a pitch black sky. With a desperate whisper, I said, “God, if you’re there, do something!”

I didn’t feel any different, but a few months later I met a Christian man named Dave who became a good friend. He shared about his relationship with God and how it changed his life. He explained that true life doesn’t come from knowing about God; it comes from knowing God. I knew about the President of the United States, but I didn’t know him. See the difference?

Far From Perfect

Raised in a Christian home, I learned about Jesus on the cross, but hearing stories about someone isn’t the same as actually knowing them. Dave said it was possible to know God but there was a catch…you had to be perfect. Well, I was far from that, but even the best person isn’t perfect, so I asked how it was possible then for anyone to know God. Dave said there was a way…through God’s Son, Jesus. Apparently, God loved me so much that He sent his Son to pay for all my screw-ups, drinking and carousing. He was punished for when I neglected my kids and for those things only God and I knew about. Jesus being perfect came to carry all of my imperfection (sin) to the cross so I could walk away scot-free. It sounded too good to be true, but I decided to look up from my awful life and ask God for help.

Easy First Step

One night sitting on the couch with Dave, I prayed a simple prayer. I asked God for help and for a new life. God rescued me and I began my journey to know God personally. By studying the Bible and praying (talking and listening), He helped me change my life. Gently, He peeled back the layers of my heart, exposing and healing the wounds and replacing them with great treasures. By His power working in my life, I was set free from alcohol and self-destructive behaviors and began making better life choices.

A Wise Decision

The wisest decision I made was to let God through His Son Jesus give me a different life. 

Since that night, I’ve discovered so many of life’s treasures like financial freedom, healing, and comfort. God taught me how to develop my gifts and personality and uses my story to help others who are desperate for a new life. He even sent me as a missionary overseas for 4-1/2 years. I tell my story to anyone who will listen (thanks for listening!). Remember, I’m a nobody from nowhere and yet…God has given me a life worth living and a home with rooms filled with treasures. I now have a purpose-filled and joyful life!

Life Worth Living

Missionary in Russia
In Moscow with my friend and translator, Tamara, in 2000.

Trusting God is a decision I’ll never regret and our relationship has grown into something far bigger than I could’ve dreamed. I share my deepest thoughts with Him every morning and listen for what He has to say. His word continuously speaks into situations I face and gives me wisdom on what to do. I’ve faced many of life’s battles and heartaches, but God has seen me through every one. It’s hard sometimes letting go of the control and trusting God to fix things, but all too well I remember what happened to me when I was in control. I became a slobbering drunk who couldn’t handle life. Nope, don’t ever want to go back to that! I made a choice to let God help and found a life worth living.

Step Into Your New Life!

Do you feel like your life’s not worth living? Discover a relationship with God, who designed a special and unique plan for your life. Let Jesus make you perfect, so you can truly know God. After his death, Jesus came back to life and now sits in heaven watching over us. He’s promised not only abundant life here, but also an eternal life when our physical bodies die. We’ll be in heaven with all our loved ones who trusted in Him. There will be no divorce, abuse, debt, or addiction. No more tears, no more suicidal thoughts! Isn’t that a life worth stepping into?

Make that decision today! Just talk to God like you would a friend. I’ll give you an example of what I said so many years ago.

Father God, I come broken and in need of your help. I’ve heard that Jesus died for me and that if I believe on Him I’ll be covered with His perfection. I make the decision now to believe that Jesus died to pay for the wrongs I’ve done. I’m sorry for all those things and ask for your forgiveness. Please change my life and lead me into the one You designed for me. I ask You to be my Lord and Savior. Thank you for giving me a life worth living!  In Jesus’ name, amen.

To find out what to know and do now, read my post, New Believer?

For more about the treasures you can discover, see my posts at Life’s Treasures.

P.S. Will you take one more step and write to me? The Bible says that when someone comes to the Lord that the angels rejoice in heaven and I’d love to rejoice with them over your decision and pray for God to bless your life! If you have any questions, let me know and we can talk about them. I can’t wait to hear from you!

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